Thursday, August 10, 2017
People think I work hard nowadays. I actually think I worked a lot harder before I did Triple Crown shows 3 years ago. Working effectively.. well I'm not the best at that. I like routine, even though it's not the most efficient path to growth. One thing I am better at, is being more okay with whatever I do on stage, even if it's not great stuff.
Saturday, July 19, 2014
So I didn't get on a team...
It's definitely humbling not getting called back at the PIT house team audition, when I see 50 other names that did and feeling like I've worked so much harder than almost all of them. But the results do not lie.
Every 6 months is a time of reflection from the intense journey I've been on. A time to re-evaluate and wonder and to contemplate. There was a part of me tonight that thought maybe I'm not cut out for improv. Maybe I don't belong on stage. Maybe I'll always at best be a second rate improviser. Maybe I've been just doing this for my own pride and for the wrong reasons. Maybe I don't love improv as much as I thought I did. Maybe all my sacrifices have been in vain. Worst of all, maybe I'm wasting my life away pursuing something I don't even love as much as I thought I did.
But it's also a time to reflect on what I have accomplished. Just a week ago, I was glowing after my level 5 class show when I felt it was perhaps the finest show I had done and my teacher Nate Starkey complimented me on the show as well as others in the class. Having done numerous class shows in the past, I had never received so many compliments before. I've been meeting so many talented and awesome people during my journey. I've improvised with some of the best improvisers out there. I've done scenes with Scott Adsit, Sasheer Zamata, Will Hines. I've studied with virutally every great improviser in NYC. I've grown as a human being and nobody can take away the passion that I've put in.
I've worked extremely hard at improv the past few years. But a part of feels like I've been barking up the wrong tree going to every single jam and doing as many shows as I can. Maybe it's time to watch more improv. To do some more reading. To try sketch and stand up. To try other activities.
Every 6 months is a time of reflection from the intense journey I've been on. A time to re-evaluate and wonder and to contemplate. There was a part of me tonight that thought maybe I'm not cut out for improv. Maybe I don't belong on stage. Maybe I'll always at best be a second rate improviser. Maybe I've been just doing this for my own pride and for the wrong reasons. Maybe I don't love improv as much as I thought I did. Maybe all my sacrifices have been in vain. Worst of all, maybe I'm wasting my life away pursuing something I don't even love as much as I thought I did.
But it's also a time to reflect on what I have accomplished. Just a week ago, I was glowing after my level 5 class show when I felt it was perhaps the finest show I had done and my teacher Nate Starkey complimented me on the show as well as others in the class. Having done numerous class shows in the past, I had never received so many compliments before. I've been meeting so many talented and awesome people during my journey. I've improvised with some of the best improvisers out there. I've done scenes with Scott Adsit, Sasheer Zamata, Will Hines. I've studied with virutally every great improviser in NYC. I've grown as a human being and nobody can take away the passion that I've put in.
I've worked extremely hard at improv the past few years. But a part of feels like I've been barking up the wrong tree going to every single jam and doing as many shows as I can. Maybe it's time to watch more improv. To do some more reading. To try sketch and stand up. To try other activities.
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